VESANG…personal journey
Vesang wrote in to us on, 3/7/2020; @9:55 PM…Hi Mike and Carol! Sorry for the delay in sharing my testimony with you. I will try to be short and testify what God has done the last few months with me and how you guys helped me so much in what I am going though. To be short, legalism and faith don’t go well together.
Testimony:
I came in the faith though the Seventh Day Adventist church where you can never be sure of your salvation. But want to make it clear. I am not writhing this to blame any church bc’s I believe God is using them all as He sees possible. I rather express (my) Vesang personal journey in understanding of God and now in attempt finally to walk by faith and not by sight.
Few months ago things went really bad … to keep it short and not load you … I used to be very healthy, active person. At the same time I was so fearful and worried about things, but I thought I just had to get tough and go through them. Eventually worry and fear grew in severe anxiety / who knows what else/ and added worry about my life and how it would affect my family with 2 sweet children, both in college now.I could not sleep well, worrying about everything possible and living it in my spirit. As Mike said this is perfect target for the enemy … and it was.
I told God that; it is impossible to live this way and I asked Him to take my life on the spot; if this is how I was to live to the rest of my live … bcs it was torture. To keep it short; instead, I woke up in the middle of the night talking in peace to God in my thoughts and was resting; although I was not sleeping.
Born Again in the True Gospel of Christ
On and off day after day the battle was going on. I was trying to reconsider all on my understanding and was begging God for help. Started listening to healing verses, reading the Bible / mostly the red print in the Gospels/ asking God almost every day to engrave His word in me and make it connect with faith in my soul.
One day I was reading 1 Peter 4:18 and I was troubled by this verse. Looking for an explanation took me to another video “ how to witness the Gospel “ demonstration. In the middle of it when the person said “God is our Father and that will never change” and “ We are His children and that will never change”. When he said that, I heard within my spirit God telling me “ You are my son and that will never change” ….
It hit me so hard that I started crying like a little baby, dropped down to the floor and asked God for forgiveness realizing what a terrible attitude and opinion I was holding in me about him / coming from legalistic denomination; I hope you understand/ … That was turning point and I want to THANK GOD for this intervention. I believe that was what people describe as born again in the true Gospel of Christ.
Since then, (Vesang says) God has taught me
Since then, God has taught me a lot change of attitude lessens and this is where you Mike and Carol were used by Him to help me. In one of “The real battle” series Mike said that he wanted to preach something else but God impressed him to keep preaching on the subject bcs it would be helpful to the believers, rather him enjoying preaching election doctrines….
Well, I believe the person that needed it was ME…” TAKE NO THOUGHT of your life …” now, is like a corner stone almost every day in my walk with God and I am sharing it with every believer I meet.
/ on the side note , can you email me the testimony about the bear , few months ago person shared it on Sunday . I have children story in my Church and want to tell that one … it was amazing /.
The next BIG change attitude SIGN
Going on … the next BIG change attitude SIGN: Mike’s preaching about healing where he addressed another one of my nonsense believes that God can make people sick as He finds needed… God FORGIVE ME ! …What image of God do we create in others saying so … God have mercy on us!
I will stop at the moment bcs it is already too long but want to mention one more thing … months ago Mike was preaching “ Do not judge…” well … the result :” few months later God changed this total disgrace attitude I had toward others. Such a relief … you have to experience it in order to believe it.
I can go on … but it is too long … Feel free to share this short testimony as you feel needed. But if you think it is not the most exciting thing to share with others do not feel you have to share it at all.
To sum up. God is cleaning me on the inside
To sum up. God is cleaning me on the inside and I am asking him every day to engrave his word in me. By His grace he showed me that I cannot depend even on my own thinking. I did not know my mind /soul/ was the battle ground for thoughts of the enemy all the time. I thought it was normal to think and dwell on everything that comes to my mind… THANK YOU God and THANK you Mike and Carol.
I just want to ask you: Please keep praying for me !
I just want to ask you: Please keep praying for me ! I still struggle with influences but they are much milder and there are moments of light and courage from the spirit of God. Mike said that sometimes it may take awhile and that we have to believe our way out of certain issues with the help of God.
This is where I am at the moment, but I can testify that God is increasing my faith / its hard to describe it/ to where it actually; His word connects with peace, positive perception and expectations, along with positive faith in the character of God feelings. So many times whenever the enemy is trying to make me dwell on stupid thoughts I repeat Mikes prayer “ God take away the thoughts that are not from you” and there is a BIG difference.
VESANG says…God is helping me
It takes the power of God to clean us from all unrighteousness. God is helping me fight back with many Bible verses that come one after another when I need to confront those stupid thought as well. The one so applicable to me is “ God has not given us the spirit of fear but of power, love and of sound mind. “ God bless everyone with this!
Thank you once again Mike and Carol! God BLESS YOU! Any advice you have for me will be appreciated as well. “ Jesus is on the throne ! “ as Mike likes to say and it is so encouraging to start realizing that.
Amen
p.s. Please email me the testimony about the bear as I mentioned earlier … hopefully many people in our church will be encouraged in faith ! Sorry for being so long … and forgive my English … it is not my native language.
Your brother in Christ :
Angel (VESANG)
